so... it's been a minute.

i haven't really existed online for a while because my god this game blew up, i mean REALLY blew up. i didn't really want to deal with any sort of internet "fame" so i nuked my twitter. i wanted to make a post to talk about crazycattle now that the dust is sort of starting to settle (not really). it's been rather a wild ride.

first off, i wouldn't exactly call myself a game developer. i wanted to put together this game because it seemed like a project that would be fun to tackle. it was a simple idea that would push me slightly out of my comfort zone but it wasn't complex enough for it to be a huge commitment. it was made over the course of a week with some support from my friends. making a very small game is fun, there's so much stuff to do that it's hard to get bored with it, and seeing my project gain attention was initially really exciting. 

then it really blew up.

don't ask me the secret to my game blowing up because i didn't intend for it. i'm not some master guerilla marketer. i just made a game because i wanted to make a game. i just like making stuff, it's my lifeblood; people enjoying said stuff is a bonus. i cannot be more thankful to anyone who's donated to me for releasing what is ostensibly contemporary shovelware (especially the person that donated 100 dollars! ). huge shout out to wriks by the way, they were incredibly supportive of me making this game and their initial repost of my game is what i think gave it the initial popularity. they predicted that it would blow up too, i guess people love farm animal games!

anyway the fame has been interesting to say the least, i don't think this game has made "anna®©TM" popular, but the game itself is absolutely massive (well, at least the memes about the game are). i mean the amount of times i've seen this game without looking for it are in the hundreds, duolingo posted an absolutely trite meme about this thing, vinesauce vinny played it and i've had the pleasure of telling many friends of mine that, yes, indeed i did actually make the fabled crazycattle3d. it's such a surreal feeling scrolling through like 10 instagram reels in a row about the game, it doesn't really feel like my game anymore, it feels like something that kind of just exists. anyway, it's been a very stressful release, i became bedridden with an awful fever for a week right after it was published and simultaneously had to deal with the myriad of stressful things that came with it such as people namesniping as many crazycattle(dot)whatever domains as they can and hosting sketchy versions of my game, a barrage of people expecting an update and throw a few nasty comments in there for good luck. i went blind for the first time that week actually (unrelated).

 (i think it funny that there are all of these unofficial sketchy hosts now though. it just feels obvious for it to happen with a game like this in the same way i would've downloaded something like marble blast off of softonic back in the day and five minutes later regcleanpro is now a startup app and my default browser has inexplicably changed.... vafan..)

nevertheless i don't think i'm going to work on this game anymore, not unless i suddenly get crazycattle3d withdrawals or whatever. people are making mods for it anyway so i'm sure someone will make your multiplayer for you, or add poland, or make a sex mod or whatever. i don't directly support it but as long as it's not monetised i don't really care either. i was thinking of making a steam version with extra content but it doesn't interest me at the moment. if i ever finish another game though it'll be straight to steam, full-price. i like money after all. i have to grow my brand and keep up the momentum you know, i need to be rich and famous one day, i will reach nirvana in an ever-growing system, the numbers are veritable proof of my fulfilment, i must WIN.. right?

at any rate, that's my thoughts on my erroneously-titled sheep game. i don't have anywhere for you to contact me anymore, and i'm planning to keep it like that indefinitely, i'm just a girl in the world unfortunately. if you really needed to contact me you will already know how to reach me. i'm not going to be using social media anymore either, i don't care for posting about the unbelievable sandwich i just ate or constantly having to see people i vehemently dislike. it's all too fake it's and all too depressing, therefore i'm not gonna keep a weird digital homunculus of me anymore, sorry. i might start a blog at some point as i want to sharpen my dubious writing skills, but social media is a surefire way to ruin my day the instant i go on it.

thank you for all the support, especially the people who have been here long before the "fame". huge thank you to those who donated too, it's gonna go to a good cause (i'm gonna buy synthesisers with it)

I know on the itch page you say you don't endorse any 3rd party hosts, but would you be willing to discuss an official partnership? Lots of our audience is obsessed with your game and is asking us on TikTok if we can work together so it would be cool if we can find a way to make that happen.

We are currently the biggest website for browser games so we can bring a lot more people to sheep chaos and help you lightly monetize it as well to make it worth your while. I was thinking adding a rewarded ad for an extra life for example. We are quit light on apps compared to mobile, most last only about 7 seconds and we never show ads before the player plays the game. We can also help you with the implementation if that's something that might be difficult at your end

-fragment of an email i recently recieved 

sorry but this software is sold as donationware. i'm not selling out just yet.

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